Felt so fucking disappointed in myself.

I told myself that i MUST not make a single mistake anymore.

But why will i even freaking make that bloody mistake over &over again? 

damn it. blur me, lousy me, useless me..

fuck! i simply hate myself.

Above is talking about myself at work.

i fucking forget to help that person book their room.

guilty~ it's not the first time anymore.

how absent-minded can i be? 

darned me.

every day is like full of work.

same thing happening each day.

i dont know what will i become even before i go tw.

today, i heard one chinese song.

one of the sentence said that something like.. 

Don't be afraid, just go ahead &pursue your dreams.

i'm wondering if i'll be able to go to sec5-Olevels then go to nafa/poly.

My ambition, fashion designer.

These days, i'd been thinking if i can really go ahead and pursue my dreams.

what if i take up fashion as my course, 

then in future, what if i don't make as much money as what i want now? 

I'm still young, i've got full of plans for my future.

&i'm suspecting my abilities whether i've the ability to do stuff i want.

I really need someone to like have a talk with me.):

had been thinking so much these days. 

wondering all the impossibles&possibles.

what should i do now?